God has been gracious to me during this season of my life. I’ve been learning so much and God has been growing me in various ways. I’m thankful for His work in my life as I learn what it means to be a godly woman, what it means to completely trust God and submit my will to Him, and what it looks like to take up my cross daily.
- My heart has been challenged to consider what it is that I value when it comes to dating. I struggled a lot with the whole idea of attraction and compatibility and how important that is in a relationship. God taught me through various women in my life that I shouldn’t focus solely on physical attraction or compatibility, but more so on being able to identify godly traits in a man and whether he has a genuine desire to grow in Christ. I also realized how critical my heart can be as I battle between the world’s idea of dating and dating based on biblical principles. The world says that compatibility is crucial before two people can date, and that without that chemistry it’s pointless and a waste of time. But attraction is certainly something that can develop, and even if you’re not physically attracted to the other person, you can become attracted to them as you see their character over time. I’m thankful for the people who gave me wise counsel and really pointed me towards truth, causing me to check my heart and consider what it is that I value. What do I base my attraction to another person on? The fact that we “click” or have instant “chemistry,” or even basing it solely on physical attraction? I also learned that I have the freedom to choose who I want to date or not date. I don’t need to force myself to date someone simply because they show an interest. Obviously I still want to be gracious and loving towards that other person, but God gives us the freedom to choose who we date. As long as we align our will with God’s, then we shouldn’t have to worry about whether choosing not to date someone is the wrong decision. We need to trust in God’s sovereign will over our lives. That’s something I had a hard time letting go of.
- God has been gracious in allowing me three interviews next month. My heart is so thankful! It’s all by the grace of God. Honestly, I wasn’t even sure I’d get interviews (I have such low confidence!) but God was gracious to provide opportunities for me. I’ll be traveling quite a bit next month, a few out of state, so of course that means a lot of expenses. Praying that I trust God to provide the funds and means to go to these interviews. I’m anxious about how the interviews will go, and whether I’ll even get into graduate school or not. It’s easy to cling to outcomes I’d like to happen, but I need to let go of that idea of being in control of the situation and let God be in control of my life. Do I truly trust that whatever happens in my life will be for my own good, and do I believe that God is still good even during seasons of trial? I pray that God would help convict my heart of these truths and that I’d find true joy and satisfaction in Him alone, not in my career or building up my reputation.
- I’ve been challenged to consider what “taking up my cross daily” really looks like, especially at home. I’ve realized how selfish I can be and how easy it is to want to be comfortable and focus on my own desires and needs, especially at home where I have a lot of things taken care of for me. God has been putting on my heart how dishonoring that is to be so inward focused, and I’ve been challenged to show love in action at home, whether it mean initiating to do the dishes, or cleaning my grandma’s bathroom accidents without complaining. My heart can be so full of grumbling, but there’s always so much to be thankful for. It can be easy to want to do these things to gain my parents’ approval or to receive verbal affirmation, but ultimately am I pleasing God with my heart motive? Am I doing things because I desire to honor God in my actions by showing the love of Christ in response to God’s love for me?
Thankful for these lessons God has been teaching and challenging me with.